Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Big Job

My house is falling apart around me. I struggle to keep up daily. Elle is at a tough age where when I put her down, she wants to be held. I forgot how bad this stage is. Two days ago I said (whined) to my husband "WhoEVER said to enjoy this baby stage clearly forgets how hard it is." I know I forgot. And it has only been five years. I am already looking forward to kindergarten. (Please spare me the sermons about enjoying every minute. I know. I know.)


I've written about my weight loss here on my blog. I devote a lot of energy into working out, planning healthy meals and snacks and tracking my progress. I was relieved the other day to hear someone say it is similar to a part-time job. I feel like it is. Every night when I used to straighten the house and check my email, I am instead on the treadmill and lifting weights. Good for my body but not so good for getting to my "to do" list.


But what do I do every week? I look for a job. I don't know why I do it. I think I like to make sure this is the right choice. I worked at a university and college in administration. So, weekly, I check the local colleges to make sure they don't need me.


I have a big job here. I am barely keeping up. So, I don't send in the resumes. I come back to reality and realize how much harder it would be to work. And I go back to moving Elle to whatever room I am trying to clean up. We sing. We make noises and we make it work. It is a big, big job. My plate is full. And I am sure I will miss this someday.

5 comments:

OHmommy said...

I am actively looking for a job. Like sending in resumes each and everyday. It's hard out there.

Emily said...

I too look out at the prospects of the real world, but I am thankful that I am "employed" at home. Soon enough I'll be back out there, soon enough...

Laura said...

good thing about working is there is no one at home to make a mess when you aren't there. Bad thing is nobody cleaned up the mess from the night before. Those who work want to stay home and those at home want to work and we all need someone to clean our house.

amyjr said...

Totally agree with Laura. Unfortunately Stephen is home during day and I still have to clean up after him when I get home. I have noticed that I am more forgetful because there is so much to do since I am not at home 3/4 days a week when the girls are in school.

Laura said...

You must need inspired as well - or a little free time too. Miss reading what you have to write, but you are allowed to take a break too. Looking forward to tomorrow.

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