It's Been a Sad Week

Sad. The Webster Dictionary defines sad as affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful.

My family pet died last week. I wasn't going to write about it because I couldn't find the words. For the whole night after I found out, I tried to write. I was shocked that I could be so sad that my old cat died. We knew she was past her time. We knew she would die soon. She was so old. I tried to write about her. The words wouldn't come to me. She was a wonderful cat. She was at least 18 years old when she passed. She was loved as a member of the family and we miss our Toonces.

Today, I am also sad. I went for my ultrasound today. Not good. My baby stopped growing at 7 1/2 weeks old. I thought I was 11 weeks along. Once again, I can't find the words. I have read other blogs where people can find poetic words to express how they are handling their grief. They are clever. They are smart. I am just too tired from crying to be either.

This will be my one and only post about being this sad. I have friends old and new that read this blog. I felt that you needed to know. Today, Kyle my four year old said "Will Ted (the name the boys gave the baby) be in Heaven?" I said yes. He is in Heaven now. Kyle said "Good. I will get to meet him someday." Yes, I am sad.