Friday, May 30, 2008

It's Been a Sad Week

Sad. The Webster Dictionary defines sad as affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful.

My family pet died last week. I wasn't going to write about it because I couldn't find the words. For the whole night after I found out, I tried to write. I was shocked that I could be so sad that my old cat died. We knew she was past her time. We knew she would die soon. She was so old. I tried to write about her. The words wouldn't come to me. She was a wonderful cat. She was at least 18 years old when she passed. She was loved as a member of the family and we miss our Toonces.

Today, I am also sad. I went for my ultrasound today. Not good. My baby stopped growing at 7 1/2 weeks old. I thought I was 11 weeks along. Once again, I can't find the words. I have read other blogs where people can find poetic words to express how they are handling their grief. They are clever. They are smart. I am just too tired from crying to be either.

This will be my one and only post about being this sad. I have friends old and new that read this blog. I felt that you needed to know. Today, Kyle my four year old said "Will Ted (the name the boys gave the baby) be in Heaven?" I said yes. He is in Heaven now. Kyle said "Good. I will get to meet him someday." Yes, I am sad.

11 comments:

Someone Being Me said...

Oh, hon. That is awful. I am so, so sorry. I don't understand why things like that have to happen. One of those cruel jokes of nature.

OHmommy said...

I was sad all day for you. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Many hugs to you and your sweet family.

Stephanie said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. I'm so sorry about everything. Your kids sure do sound amazing if thats what they are taking from this..good job!

Poltzie said...

I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do to make it better. Wishing that you have lots of support around you during this sad time.
Contine to blog about it if it makes you feel better, I'm listening!

thestraightpoop said...

Indy, I am very sad to read this...with our new Duane and a lot of pets from my childhood, I do know how terrible this loss is. Remember the good times!
And thank you for your kindness over in my corner of the blogosphere...big hug.

Krystyn said...

I'm so sad for your loses! I can't even begin to imagine.

That is so great that your sons are so understanding and faithful.

Jessica said...

Oh my dear! I am so sad to hear your news. Please know your friends are here for you.

Rhea said...

I'm so sorry you lost your baby and your cat all in the same week. Either one of those events alone would have been hard enough, much less both. I barely know you, but I'm sending you a big cyber HUG because we women have to stick together through hard times.

Tranny Head said...

Hang in there, honey. I can't imagine what you're going through. I'm so sorry - my thoughts are with you and your family.

Stephanie said...

No one can ever feel what you're going through until they've experienced it so I won't even try. May time dry your tears and God heal your sorrow. Hang in there.

WomensDaily said...

That's so horrible that you have to go through that. It must be such a horrible time for you. Many hugs to you.

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