I am always a little shy about my body the first day of spring when I wear shorts or the first trip to the pool. I get over it but I go through a little shock slipping on the bathing suit and taking a look in the mirror. Today we visited the pool. It was extremely crowded when we got there. I looked around. I recognized some people. There were a lot of people I didn't know. I saw a lot of skinny moms in bikinis. Of course I thought evil thoughts.
So, as I attempt to not be noticed in my post-pregnancy body in my fat sucking one piece suit, I sit down and help the kids with their shirts. We arrived at the pool break so it was pretty quiet and people were just waiting to go in. I kept saying to myself "Just blend in. Just blend in, Just blend...." and over the intercom I heard "Will Indy Notmyrealname please report to the guard tower?" Oh man. No. I can't do this. I now have the whole pool looking at me and I have to walk over to the life guard station in my bathing suit to claim my drivers license from the front desk. I wanted to die. DIE!
The kids want to go to the pool again tomorrow. I can handle the second day at the pool in my swimsuit. Just not the first. And thank goodness, they do not need my drivers license tomorrow.
(A little afterthought-no I didn't even think to wear a cover-up or grab a towel. Too mortified to process any thoughts.)