Monday, June 30, 2008
My life isn't usually that exciting. Not in a bad way. In a good way. Friday was like any other day. I babysat for my someone in my babysitting co-op. I took the kids to WALL-E. We then came home and then I checked my Google account to read my comments on my blog.
I love any and all comments. I get excited whenever I receive one. But on Friday, one completely shocked me. I was surprised to read that Tory Johnson stopped by and left a comment. I mentioned her in my post about a part-time job. Do you know Tory Johnson? She is the founder and CEO of Women For Hire and is on Good Morning America often. I am a huge fan of Good Morning America (love Diane and Robin). Anyway, as I checked my Google I was shocked to see a comment from Tory Johnson. I could barely read it I was so excited.
This is what she wrote:
Indy...what a fun blog you're writing. Think of small steps to reach a big goal. It's easy to come up with all the reasons why you can't or shouldn't do anything -- and they're valid reasons. But where there's a will there's a way. If you really want to make money at home, you can find the time to reach that goal. Is it easy? Of course not. But it's definitely doable. Maybe you set aside 30 minutes a day to select, photograph and post things on eBay. (All the money won't go to taxes, nor will it go to a sitter!) Or think of a skill you'd love to use again while working from home. You don't have to earn thousands of dollars overnight to make it worthwhile. Start where it's comfortable and build from there. I'm rooting for your success.
A huge thank you to Tory for stopping by my blog. And just a side note to Tory, I am doing just as you suggested. I am selling items on EBay and have my used books up on Amazon.com. I am taking small steps to make financial changes for our family. One example is my use of a babysitting co-op instead of a paid babysitter. We trade hours instead of money. Thank you for all of your words of encouragement. I will continue to watch you on GMA and read your magazine. Wow! Thank you so much for stopping by. You made my day and week.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I am always a little shy about my body the first day of spring when I wear shorts or the first trip to the pool. I get over it but I go through a little shock slipping on the bathing suit and taking a look in the mirror. Today we visited the pool. It was extremely crowded when we got there. I looked around. I recognized some people. There were a lot of people I didn't know. I saw a lot of skinny moms in bikinis. Of course I thought evil thoughts.
Monday, June 23, 2008
We are? For how many days?
Just today? How many pools does this boat have on it?
No pools Ry. It is a pontoon boat. Not a cruise ship.
(Last year, we met my parents in Miami for a Carnival cruise. We had a wonderful time and it was a great experience for the kids.)
This past Sunday, we celebrated Father's Day a week late. For years, my dad has wanted to rent a pontoon boat and spend a day on a quiet lake with his family. We talked about it and tried to figure out how to rent a boat. We had never been to Atwood Lake and had no idea that pontoons were everywhere and it would be simple to rent them. My poor sister tried to do it via phone and online. The day started as a disaster. We were lost. Mapquest directions were awful. We were in the middle of nowhere and no one's cell phones worked. My husband's GPS on his Blackberry didn't even have a connection. We barely made it. Once we got there, we realized that this lake was HUGE and difficult to get around. Meeting up was going to be a challenge.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I love food. All kinds. I even eat airline food when they offer (thank you Continental). I have high standards for some food. Sometimes I like cheap, crummy food. My husband and I were tearing into Doritos last week and one of us said "Doritos are underrated." They really are. You will not find them at a fancy cocktail party. You won't find them at a dinner party. But if you did, people would eat every last one of them. They don't get respect but most everyone loves Doritos.
Every now and then, we like to come up with foods that no one really gives any props to but really deserve some attention for being yummy. Please no comments about unhealthy food choices or allergies. I hear you. I am not talking about. I am just saying. Relax.
Our list in no particular order:
1. The peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Cheap, easy to pack, no refrigeration necessary. So easy. Love it. I eat one every morning for breakfast. Really.
2. Grilled cheese or toasted cheese. Yummmmmy. Perfection.
3. Pizza rolls. If you ever make a batch for visiting friends (like my husband's old law school buddies) they will disappear as fast as you can make them. Well, you have to wait for them to cool a little first or you will seriously burn your mouth. "Lava hot" as we call it here. But once they cool, they are gone in a flash.
4. Any sort of macaroni and cheese. Homemade or Kraft. Love it all. Could there be a more perfect use of cheese?
5. And finally...drum roll please...chicken nuggets. If you have ever swiped one off of your child's plate at a restaurant, you realize that there is a reason kids order this everywhere they go. It is good stuff. A lot of times, I secretly think my child's meal is better at the restaurant than mine. I would never have the courage to order "chicken strips" at a restaurant. But, I'd probably be a little more satisfied at some restaurants if I did.
So there you have it. Our list of underrate foods. I am off to make some PB & J's for the pool. Maybe we'll have mac and cheese for dinner. Please feel free to add some suggestions to our list of underrated foods. Cheeze whiz? Spam? Ritz crackers?
Friday, June 20, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Oh so I thought.
I went to the OB-Gyn today. Man, I was sad. I am supposed to be pregnant. I should be listening to the heartbeat of my baby. I should be naming my baby. But instead, we had to talk about an ultrasound for tissue that is not a baby. I am bleeding and it should have stopped. This just isn't right. I could barely keep it together as I walked to my car. I am supposed to be pregnant. I am not.
As I sat in my car and cried I realized that I am so glad that this happened to me. Well, glad is the wrong word. I don't know what the right word it. Anyway, I thought I understood a miscarriage. I really thought I knew what people were going through. You lose a baby and then you try again. I have two kids. No biggie. I am expected to try again. All I know is that I will be a better friend to people that have lost their baby. I will be a better mom. I will be a better grandmother. What I understand cannot be put into words. It is something I feel.
I went to the grocery story right after my D & C. No biggie. But really, it was awful. I am not emotional. My husband has not seen my cry since I have lost this baby. I cried the first day, the entire day and did not stop. He was gone all day for business and I needed to be alone. I thought I was fine and over the miscarriage but I could barely make myself walk past the diapers for the toddler wipes I needed down the aisle. I then needed a price check on an item. I could barely make myself walk down the aisle twice. This happens to emotional women, not strong women like me. I can't believe I am breaking down at Giant Eagle.
I had to go to a bridal shower right after I lost the baby. "Congratulations" shouted an aunt over the loud roar of the women. She had just heard that I was pregnant. "I lost the baby." I tried to explain as best as I could. She was confused and so was I. "I lost the baby." I tried to make her feel better. She felt awkward about her congratulations. I felt funny and tried to make her feel better. There is no right way to end this conversation. We all felt awkward.
It is life and people lose babies all of the time. I know that. But, I am also trying to make sure I experience all of the feelings that are natural for a miscarriage. It is just hard when you feel like you are all good and then BAM! you are smacked with feelings that you are not ready for. You didn't plan to be smacked with sadness mid-day. You were done mourning. And then your little guy asks if there will be another Ted. We'll see. We'll see. I'm just trying to figure it all out.
The chair of the co-op and the president of our mom's club were ironing out some details about the group. I'll wait. No hurry.
Then, the host of the house sat down and started talking to the other women. It went on and on. We talked about the U.S. education system. We talked about other countries. We talked about our preschool PTA. On and on we talked. I was so sleepy. At this point, I hated to say "Would you move your car?" But I should have.
When the other ladies finally decided to leave, they went to their vans on the street! It was the husband of the host that parked behind me. I could have left at any time if I would have asked. I then had to go in and ask the host to move the car. I got home from a babysitting co-op meeting at 11:30 p.m. What? Not very smart.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
This was a tough challenge. I didn't know where to go with it. No money. Where to start? Well, my first attempt was to clean out the garage for him as a gift. We have a garage that is so dirty I close it before anyone comes over. I am so embarrassed by it. I spent all Friday afternoon trying to clean it out the best I could. It isn't perfect. It was such a hot day that I ended up running out of steam so I skipped this idea.
So, I scrambled to come up with something meaningful but free. I framed a picture that my son drew at school of my hubby and my son playing basketball. It is my husband's favorite picture that my son has drawn. I knew he'd love that. The frame has a bunch of scratches on it. But, I had to use what I had around the house. It was hard to give him a gift with scratches. It is for his office. Oh well. I had to use what I had.
I then went and found two photos that I had taken last winter but never framed. You know how that goes. You spend tons of money on photos and you never get around to framing. The frames were brand new but never used. I had forgotten that I had them.
I then decided that if I made a little money instead of spending it, he would be surprised and happy. So, I listed something on EBay that I know will make a little chunk of change. That will help the bottom line instead of adding more costs. I made this one of his "gifts."
I then attempted to make a card for my husband. It was pretty sad. I used the kids' markers and white card stock. The kids kept bothering me the whole time I was trying to write something sweet and loving. It wasn't the most beautiful card. But, it was free and it said how I felt.
My point? It was not a perfect Father's Day gift. But, I followed his wishes. It would have been so much easier to buy him a video game, a shirt or some gadget. I am not one of those sweet people that can make beautiful cards and write something so meaningful it will bring a tear to his eyes. Father's Day was put together as fast as I could with what I had at my house in between a million questions and requests from my children. And the result was a happy daddy and a budget without any costs added to the line "gifts." Happy Father's Day Sweetie!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
When I first entered this world of blogging, I was shocked by all of the contests. This is my kind of world. I love to read. I love to enter contests. I love to write. This is great. I won the first contest I ever entered on a blog. I won a beautiful blanket on petit elefant. She gives away items almost daily. Check it out.
Today, I entered a contest on Texas World Tangle. She is giving away some cool jewelry, a cowboy hat and my favorite, a Target gift card. Check out her site for more info. Doesn't take more than a few minutes to enter. It is also one of my favorite blogs. I visit daily.
I have one more for you. If you have never been to Classy Chaos, you must go. It is the one place I visit daily as I drink my morning tea. OHmommy is giving away a chance to have your blog redesigned by Krystyn. Krystyn redesigned my site and I love it. Just leave OHmommy a comment on her site and you are entered to win.
Contests are fun because for the moment that you are entering, you are dreaming about what it would be like to win. For me, it is all about the dream. Positive thinking doesn't hurt either. I honestly think I will win a trip somewhere. Someday. Have you ever won anything before? Are you a contest person? Where would you go on your dream vacation? I better go pack my bags. I know that Olive Garden will be contacting me soon to let me know that I am on my way to Italy. I just know.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I am just like any other mom. I have to do lists and a million things to do. I am used to trying to do it all. But, summer isn't about doing it all. It is a mindset that I find hard to shift into.
I especially love to read in the summer. I am reading the best book, Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett. I never thought I would like it. But, Oprah has talked about it so much that I couldn't resist any longer. It is a great book to read while watching the kids ride the bikes up and down the street or play in the backyard. It's a long one but I can tell that it is one that I don't want to end.
So again, I tell myself. Relax. Watch the kids play in the backyard. Play with the kids. Sip the lemonade. Pick up the book and read. It is OK. Do whatever you feel like doing. Enjoy the sunshine. Inhale. Soak it all in. Exhale.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Last night a friend asked my mom was feeling. Once again, I offered her too much information and on and on I went. I got into her past history of the auto-immune disease. I continued with a detailed play by play of the past few months and ended with a not so quick description of the last few weeks. Once again, a simple "She's doing better" would have answered the question.
I know better. As children, we were encouraged to keep certain things private about our family. My dad is very private about money. He would say "There are certain things that you keep private." Sorry Dad. I am really struggling with it. I know my friends don't need to hear every detail about my life. There should be some things about me that I don't share. The weird thing is that when I write, I can keep a lot private. There are so many things that I'd love to write about but cannot. I don't struggle with the line. But, just get me talking and I will tell you everything you never wanted to know.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
My house is pretty clean considering I have two little boys. It gets messy but it isn't dirty. At least I like to think that it is clean. But this week as the humidity rolls in, I am starting to wonder. The smells that are coming from my bathroom would stop any mom in her tracks.
How can my boys miss the toilet every time they pee?
Seriously, I could mop daily and it would still be dirty. Even once I do mop, I know that I will still smell the urine oozing from the bathroom. It hides. It lurks. It won't quit.
If you live with only women or girls, you have no idea. You will think that you do. You will tell me that little girls don't always get it right. I remember. I lived with my two little sisters. I hear you. But boys are so messy in the bathroom.
My oldest son is pretty good at hitting the mark except in the middle of the night. It is my littlest boy. He can't pee straight to save his life. I have lectured. I have made him clean it up. I have nearly cried. But, he is just a messy little guy.
I have looked online for tricks. I have tried to find the magic formula to make my bathrooms smell cleaner. My friends and my sister talk about it. There has to be someone out there with a solution. I haven't had much luck. The only one I can come up with to share is my own. I pour floor cleaner (not watered down) around the toilet. I let it ooze into the spaces around the toilet for a minute or so. I then soak it up with a paper towel. You will be surprised with all of the urine that comes out. Be sure to go back a little later. Some oozes out and it looks pretty gross.
Do you know any tricks so that your bathroom doesn't smell like a barn? Any tips that I am missing? Help!
Sorry, Ry. Ice cream trucks charge a lot for their ice cream.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
My mom sold Mary Kay Cosmetics my whole life. My dad, yes my dad, sold Pampered Chef. Both did really well. The women LOVED my dad. A good looking man that cooks can sell women anything. My mom won a car from Mary Kay. She loves the products and still sells it when she is well. She has sold Mary Kay Cosmetics for over 25 years. I have been around home based businesses my whole life.
So many of my friends and relatives are selling through home based businesses. I could probably shop only from my friends and be able to handle of the gifts I need to buy throughout the year. I love to shop. I love to spend money. But, there is a budget and my husband and I keep track of where our money goes.
Here's the hard part. I don't like hosting the shows. I don't really like attending them. I feel pressured and usually spend too much money. Most of the times, the companies charge shipping and handling. The products are items that I would find cheaper somewhere else. Most of the time, I could do without or I make myself do without.
Sometimes I have had to be the host when a relative really needs to start their business. I find it extremely uncomfortable. I hate to ask my friends to come. I am nervous before and throughout the show. I don't want anyone to feel they have to buy. I especially don't want people to feel that they have to come. I usually serve wine. That helps!
So, as the title of this blog says, "I'm not talking about it, I am just saying..." I am just talking about it. I know it is all me. I am a big girl, I can choose to skip the parties. I can choose not to host the few that I have. I can say no. I have. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I can't.
So, tell me. Do you host? Do you attend? Do you say no? Do you love them? Are you a consultant? Please be kind in your responses. I have had a tough week. Seriously. I beg you.